Rawr. I downed 40 oz. of coffee and little while ago and now I'm all jittery. It's like having an anxiety attack without the anxiety (though that may hit around 1am or 2am). I'm jumping between pacing around my apartment and banging on everything with my hands like they're drumsticks. I took a shower, ate dinner, and now I'm drinking as much water as I can to calm myself down. I have a full night's worth of homework to get through and I need steady hands so that I'm not retyping everything later. So I'm putting my crazy energy to work with this since typos aren't a problem for internet talking.
I haven't had as restful a week as I would have liked. Thanksgiving is so short and I spent most of it driving across New Jersey and Pennsylvania to get much rest. It was good to see family and spend some time with the people that I rarely get to see, but between travel and work I haven't had very much me time. I have three more weeks of school and exams and then I intend to do nothing. I've taken time off of work so that I can go back to Vermont and experience a real winter, but while I'm there I don't plan on doing much of anything. You would think that switching from physics to English I wouldn't have as much work, but I think I have more to do now than I ever have before and it's very slowly but very intently eating me away until I not much more than a shell of a person. It's driving me crazy.
It also doesn't help having family who likes to belittle and eat at you too. I love my family, I really do, but some of them are just horrible, selfish people. I don't know how my aunt does it, she has so much patience and understanding for people and yet she's surrounded by some not very nice people. I only spent twenty-fours around them and by the time I got back to the city I was reduced to tears and self-loathing from all of the negative criticisms and I had to have Yonni build be back up while I was at work.
I'm trying to get rid of my Tuesday work shift so that I can sleep in before my night class, but I desperately need the little money that I get from it. I'm still deciding if I really need it or not.
I haven't had as restful a week as I would have liked. Thanksgiving is so short and I spent most of it driving across New Jersey and Pennsylvania to get much rest. It was good to see family and spend some time with the people that I rarely get to see, but between travel and work I haven't had very much me time. I have three more weeks of school and exams and then I intend to do nothing. I've taken time off of work so that I can go back to Vermont and experience a real winter, but while I'm there I don't plan on doing much of anything. You would think that switching from physics to English I wouldn't have as much work, but I think I have more to do now than I ever have before and it's very slowly but very intently eating me away until I not much more than a shell of a person. It's driving me crazy.
It also doesn't help having family who likes to belittle and eat at you too. I love my family, I really do, but some of them are just horrible, selfish people. I don't know how my aunt does it, she has so much patience and understanding for people and yet she's surrounded by some not very nice people. I only spent twenty-fours around them and by the time I got back to the city I was reduced to tears and self-loathing from all of the negative criticisms and I had to have Yonni build be back up while I was at work.
I'm trying to get rid of my Tuesday work shift so that I can sleep in before my night class, but I desperately need the little money that I get from it. I'm still deciding if I really need it or not.
