Wednesday, May 4, 2011

If the business men drink my blood like the kids in art school said they would then I'll guess I'll just begin again.

I just finished watching Morning Glory with Rachel McAdams and Harrison Ford. I was surprisingly pleased at the film especially since I had read a lot of negative reviews and had decided to just write it off as another chicky flick. I don't know maybe it was the funny funny one liners that came out of Harrison or Jeff Goldblum or maybe it was because I felt like I was watching a movie about my future self. Rachel McAdams spends 95% of the movie running around like a chicken with her head cut off worrying about her job way too much to even realize that Patrick Wilson was trying to get her. She even makes a comment about who she has no love radar and that it's only when a guy takes his pants off in front of her that she realizes that he's into her. That is me. I spend way too much time focusing on stuff and have no idea when I am being hit on until a guy goes in for the kill and even then half the time I'm still a little too stunned to pick up on what's happening. 

I had an interesting talk with my boss at work today. I totally didn't realize that I hadn't told her about changing my major. I was in such denial about it for the longest time and then all of the sudden told a bunch of people and I guess she fell through the cracks. She was so supportive about it and shared her own stories about changing her major late in the game and the fear of disappointing people who had put so much faith in your choices. We ended up having a lovely chat about my future and what I might be doing. We also discussed my summer position and I have to buy some work appropriate clothing so J. Crew here I come next Wednesday. I have so many things that I need to do before then, I can't believe that all of this school stuff will be over by then I and will be one step one month closer to starting senior year and finally having to be responsible for more than just me. Gasp!

I'm slowly easing myself back on to facebook almost solely for marketing purposes, but I am reaching out to  couple of people form high school that I haven't seen or talked to in years now. I left a lot of that on unpleasant terms and haven't really been willing or wanted to talk to any of them, but now that the semester is coming to an end and I've started to have to face the fact that I am on the precipice of beginning to move on with my life (no matter what Yonni says, I am not going back to Vermont) I've become a little nostalgic. So I'm taking advantage of that nostalgia to reach out to people before I get over it and don't care anymore.

I'm about to tackle my twenty page pre-final for Friday in a minute. I have to redo a paper as well and I want to get that done and the six page introspective piece that has to go in the portfolio and then I think I will celebrate actually getting stuff done with the last beer in the fridge while watching The Young Victoria for the thousandth time. I haven't had beer in weeks and I started watching the movie this morning before I ha to go into the lab so I think that that will be a nice break. What I would really like to do tonight is drive over to the beach and watch the sun rise but the weather is a little icky and I don't want to go alone and most of my friends are extremely unimpulsive, sorry friends, and the ones that are have a final tomorrow morning and would not take kindly to rushing back through the city so early.