I have the biggest craving for chocolaty fudgy brownies right now. The kind that are gooey and warm and are crispy along the corner edges. Soooo good. It's killing me that I don't have any and that I can't eat any because of my new resolution to be healthy. Fuck me! I'm going to go run to take my mind off the cravings after I finish this and then make some lunch. I found chocolate chips in the cupboard and now I have to convince myself that I don't need to bake cookies or make chocolate chip pancakes. It's making me cranky/crazy and if I have another night at work like I did last night I'm going to shoot something or key my arch nemesis' car. Grr. I definitely had a hard time kick starting healthy eating habits and I think that that's been because I've been under my mother's thumb for so long and ha to listen to her preach about how Samantha and I are addicted to carbs and that we were going to become obese American children. I just got tired of it and did what I could to push against her. Now that I'm away from her and speeches it's easier for me to want to be healthy. For example: My mother LOVES almonds and how good they are for you. I developed a hatred for almonds and would not eat them. Now I'm starting to like almonds again now that they aren't always around and the fact that my mother is 400 miles away from me. So as long as she keeps her mouth reasonably quiet about healthy eating this is going to be a successful lifestyle change for me.
Tonight's Katie's "I quit Borders" party. I told her I would go because I love her and I haven't seen her in ages. I don't plan on drinking a) I made a mess of myself the last time I was there and b) I'm still dirt poor and buying beer is low on my spending priorities. We need to start frequenting places where there is dancing. Dancing is way more fun than sitting around and having the same conversations that we have every weekend plus dancing burns calories. Double score. If I make more than $80 tonight maybe I'll buy a PBR, but probably not because I really really want to go shopping next month.
So I'm really starting to rethink going to Lancaster the Monday after next Monday. I called my aunt and left her a message an haven't heard back from her. Now I realize that there's a good chance that she may not be home, but she never goes anywhere and people should check their messages you never know who could be calling. However if I don't go to Lancaster it saves on having to buy an EZ Pass sooner rather than later when I start day tripping to Seaside and eventually make the haul up north. Still acknowledging that I called would be nice.
Tonight's Katie's "I quit Borders" party. I told her I would go because I love her and I haven't seen her in ages. I don't plan on drinking a) I made a mess of myself the last time I was there and b) I'm still dirt poor and buying beer is low on my spending priorities. We need to start frequenting places where there is dancing. Dancing is way more fun than sitting around and having the same conversations that we have every weekend plus dancing burns calories. Double score. If I make more than $80 tonight maybe I'll buy a PBR, but probably not because I really really want to go shopping next month.
So I'm really starting to rethink going to Lancaster the Monday after next Monday. I called my aunt and left her a message an haven't heard back from her. Now I realize that there's a good chance that she may not be home, but she never goes anywhere and people should check their messages you never know who could be calling. However if I don't go to Lancaster it saves on having to buy an EZ Pass sooner rather than later when I start day tripping to Seaside and eventually make the haul up north. Still acknowledging that I called would be nice.
