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I think you're about to be asleep right now. You should be asleep right now because it's late and you've written that you intend to get up early tomorrow to stake out something you won't have to do for another three months. But I saw that california king beds were trending on twitter for some reason and it made me think of you and your problematic bed, which is really quite uncomfortable, and then I remembered that Sleepys is having a mattress sale and now that you are in a position to save a little (even if you don't think you really are, you are) and should buy a new mattress sooner than later. Before you know it you're going to be caught up in school and teaching and that will take a stressful toll on your body and you will regret not having a fine mattress to sleep on. So save up or tell your dad you need money for car repairs.

I watched The Garden of Eden tonight. It was really lovely. Mena Suvari did an excellent job portraying Catherine and her destructiveness. The devil. The Garden of Eden is one of those stories like (500) Days of Summer. It is a love story, but at the same time it really is. In this one you know right away that there isn't going to be a happy ending or a simple one. One of Catherine's first lines is her saying that she is a destructive person who is going to do something really terrible one of these days. There's also a subplot about a young David in Africa with his father during their hunt for an elephant. Young David leads the group on a hunt for elephant ivory, but then comes to regret his actions after he understands the poachers' intent. This ties in as a story that David writes during his honeymoon and the couple's interactions with Marita.

I went to Ikea today to get the part that I needed for my shelves. I can't go to stores like Ikea. There's too many well-priced things that I want to buy. I ended up walking out with not only my shelving part, but also new curtains for my bedroom and a new lampshade for the small lamp on my bureau. I want to go back and get more things that I really don't need for my apartment. I am thinking about getting an area rug for my living room so that might be something for me to think about for later on. I'm hoping I'll just move out of my apartment before it comes to that. 

All the other kids with the pumped up kicks, better run, better run faster than my bullet.

I absolutely love when I can come out of work at night and it is still warm out and I can roll the windows own in my car. Sometimes after work you just need something simple tonight to make you feel better after a day of work. I had a really pathetic night. It was a fine start to a double with a large party and a generous tip, but then I got the customer from HELL. He was truly a very rude man. He had no manners and demanded everything and no matter how accommodating we were to him nothing was good enough for him. The after him the kitchen went down and one of my large party's food took almost an hour to get out to them. Part of their bill ended up being comped and so did my tip. I got so frustrated at one of the hostess and started to really miss my mom that I actually started crying while I rang up checks. It wasn't the heaving sobs I get when I'm really upset or tired, but the awkward sniffles and teary eyes that take forever to clear up I had to find behind a post and pretend to clean menus.

I finally got around to setting up the Wii. I know I said I was going to do it but then I got caught up watching old SNL episodes from the 90s and then around 1am the fire alarm went off. I usually just stay in my apartment, but at 1am the alarm sounded extra loud and I couldn't take it. I went and read a book in my car until it got shut down. The lines for the elevator were excruciatingly long when I got back in the building so I decided to hike up the nine flights of steps to my apartment. Walking up the stairs actually wasn't too bad so I may do it more. I also found out where they keep the cable connections in case I feel like being devious and want to commit a misdemeanor. I should have just gone and got blueberry pancakes. I haven't had then in a super long while and I kind of want some now, plus it would have been enough time to let everyone back in the building and free up the elevators. 

I can't marry you. I just got Playstation 2, it's very time consuming.

Muse came on the radio tonight on my drive home from work so I had to do it. I had to turn the volume up and roll my windows down and sing really really loudly and out of tune. It's just one of those things I had to do and then after Muse more awesome songs came on and I had to just keep going. Of course now I'm public enemy number in bother Wynnewood and Bala Cynwyd. Just a small price for the simpler joys in my life.

I actually made money tonight at work. Last night was pretty lame, but tonight was worth going in. I was busy but had a good flow. About half way through my shift I wanted to stick a knife in one of my busser's eyes because he is always stoned and can never complete a task without being told fifty times, but I got over it. I also bussed all of my tables by myself. Tonight was also the first night that I didn't min being stuck there all night. I usually get about three hours in before I'm begging to be cut, but tonight I took my time with resetting an side work and even offered to drive a friend home to Drexel Hill. I've been so used to being out late everyday this past week that the idea of having to go home right away was kind of unappealing. I do need the sleep though, I've been running on air for about half of the time and a good night's sleep is now vital for my continuancy. I woke up at 6:30am with the intention of running to the library to get some last minute studying in and then I remembered that I'm finished with classes. It hasn't really hit me yet that I've finished and I think that it's going to be Monday, when I don't have to get up early, when it happens.

I got the Wii today. I'm going to set it up after I finish this since I'm clearly not very tired. I got a nice pine shelving unit from Ikea today and they were out of one part some I'm going to head to the South Philly store on Monday after work and get the piece and re-organize my kitchen. I think  Monday is also going to be the day I change my bedroom and plan a Wednesday shop. I also got Garden of Eden from Netlifx which is what I'm going to be watching tomorrow after work. Garden of Eden is my all time favorite Hemingway novel and I've been dying to see this movie since I saw the trailer last summer. It's also how I found out Yonni was also really into Hemingway too. Love Hemingway.

Fuck with the cheese, fuck with the cheese.

I'm about two hours towards heading into my final exam. It's not a super important final, only worth a small percentage of the final grade, but it's in a class taught by my advisor so I can't blow it off. I spent six hours knocking out a paper for the portfolio that's due at the start of the final and my finger are exhausted from typing 20+ pages. I celebrated last night with a couple of friends. I didn't really want to go out because I had come home from studying and curled up in bed for a couple hours which made me sleepy and comfy, but my friend who was hosting us was really excited to do something to celebrate the end of his classes and since I like my friend I wanted support him and celebrate his excitement. I'm actually really glad that I went out because I got to meet someone new and get to know him and I got to see Cynthia! Cynthia! is my tiny awesome friend who has similar taste in music as me.

My Dad's visiting today and tomorrow. He brought me the Wii and the rest of my bed, which I'm particularly jazzed about because now I won't keep banging my shin on the piece that sticks out. It also means that I'm going to have to get around to rearranging my room so that I'm using all of the space that I can get out of it. Right now I have a lot of useless space in my room. I also have to rearrange my living room/kitchen areas because I'm getting some new furniture and everything feels really cramped around the edges.

The weather lately has been bumming me out. It was so nice and lovely the first few days at the beginning of the week, but lately its just been really cold and uncomfortable. I just want to be able to go outside with less clothes on. I'm going to go shopping either this Wednesday or next Wednesday (probably next Wednesday) and I don't want to have to keep buying warm clothing. I have to remember to buy some work clothes and some new shoes. Right now I'm in desperate need to get new summer shoes. I may make a separate trip out just to do shoes in a couple of weeks. I love shoe shopping. I got really into it in high school and then I dated a guy that bought me shoes and then after we stopped being together I just sort lost the excitement for shoes.

I'm thinking about going out tonight. I want to go dancing and I think I can manage to get Anna to come out with me. I also want to get slightly obliterated, but my Dad is visiting and I have to work tonight so it's going to a late decision about whether or not I actually go or if I save it for next weekend when everyone comes back for graduation and summer stuff.

THANK YOU KYLE FOR SHOWING THIS TO ME!

If the business men drink my blood like the kids in art school said they would then I'll guess I'll just begin again.

I just finished watching Morning Glory with Rachel McAdams and Harrison Ford. I was surprisingly pleased at the film especially since I had read a lot of negative reviews and had decided to just write it off as another chicky flick. I don't know maybe it was the funny funny one liners that came out of Harrison or Jeff Goldblum or maybe it was because I felt like I was watching a movie about my future self. Rachel McAdams spends 95% of the movie running around like a chicken with her head cut off worrying about her job way too much to even realize that Patrick Wilson was trying to get her. She even makes a comment about who she has no love radar and that it's only when a guy takes his pants off in front of her that she realizes that he's into her. That is me. I spend way too much time focusing on stuff and have no idea when I am being hit on until a guy goes in for the kill and even then half the time I'm still a little too stunned to pick up on what's happening. 

I had an interesting talk with my boss at work today. I totally didn't realize that I hadn't told her about changing my major. I was in such denial about it for the longest time and then all of the sudden told a bunch of people and I guess she fell through the cracks. She was so supportive about it and shared her own stories about changing her major late in the game and the fear of disappointing people who had put so much faith in your choices. We ended up having a lovely chat about my future and what I might be doing. We also discussed my summer position and I have to buy some work appropriate clothing so J. Crew here I come next Wednesday. I have so many things that I need to do before then, I can't believe that all of this school stuff will be over by then I and will be one step one month closer to starting senior year and finally having to be responsible for more than just me. Gasp!

I'm slowly easing myself back on to facebook almost solely for marketing purposes, but I am reaching out to  couple of people form high school that I haven't seen or talked to in years now. I left a lot of that on unpleasant terms and haven't really been willing or wanted to talk to any of them, but now that the semester is coming to an end and I've started to have to face the fact that I am on the precipice of beginning to move on with my life (no matter what Yonni says, I am not going back to Vermont) I've become a little nostalgic. So I'm taking advantage of that nostalgia to reach out to people before I get over it and don't care anymore.

I'm about to tackle my twenty page pre-final for Friday in a minute. I have to redo a paper as well and I want to get that done and the six page introspective piece that has to go in the portfolio and then I think I will celebrate actually getting stuff done with the last beer in the fridge while watching The Young Victoria for the thousandth time. I haven't had beer in weeks and I started watching the movie this morning before I ha to go into the lab so I think that that will be a nice break. What I would really like to do tonight is drive over to the beach and watch the sun rise but the weather is a little icky and I don't want to go alone and most of my friends are extremely unimpulsive, sorry friends, and the ones that are have a final tomorrow morning and would not take kindly to rushing back through the city so early.  

Trying to find the in-betweens, fall back in love eventually.

I'm watching Paper Heart right now. It is a documentary style movie about Charlyne Yi trying to find out about love and whether or not it exists. It's move about love and not about Charlene trying to find love, that part just sort of happens on it's own. Thank you Michael Cera. But anyways, there's a really great interview that she does with an older divorced man about love and true love and finding your soul mate. It's a very  touching moment coming from someone who was left in a marriage and has decided not to get married again because he is afraid of hurt. Check it out, it's a nice movie for those of us that are slightly defective in the love department. Morning Glory arrives in the mail tomorrow. I'm a big Rachel McAdams fan so I'll let you know how it is.

I made turkey balls for dinner tonight. Sounds gross, but they're really just meat balls made from ground turkey. I wanted to go for a leaner meat and I've never had ground turkey before so I thought I would try something new. I really like the ground turkey alternative to red meat. When I was making the balls I kept expecting the raw beef smell, so while I was rolling the balls I thought there was something wrong with the meat. There wasn't and they turned out really good. I made them the way I normally make regular meat balls, I just didn't make them the Aunt Val way. I don't have the patience or resources to go through all of that. I would rather just visit her on meat ball night.

I thought I might do some work tonight, but since I'm not doing anything for the next two days I'm going to just get up early and power through as much as I can and then finish the rest up on Thursday afternoon. If I really can't get to sleep in a little while I'll start my portfolio for Seminar and now that I think about it I really want to write the first draft of the first part so I'll probably just do that later and sleep in tomorrow morning. Meh.

Okay people, by the way I am NOT a clepto. I just happen to collect books the way some people collect pennies. I've just got very refined collecting skills and maybe one day I will share my experiences with the Stowe Free Library. 

But it was not your fault but mine, it was your heart on the line, I really fucked it up this time.

Yonni said he felt like a machine the other day, today I feel like Richard's new broken down tractor that he wants to fix up. I haven't had real sleep yet and I don't see it happening tonight, but I do see a full day of it on Wednesday to get me rested before a full day of work on Wednesday. Shout out to Kyle T. for taking my shift tomorrow night because after I finish the first part of Friday's assignment and do my paper rewrite I am going to go to sleep and try my hardest not to wake up for at least eight hours.

I feel like my body is invincible but not in the good way like when you complete an intense workout or narrowly miss getting hit my a SEPTA bus. It's more of an ongoing thing with my body. Like if I were to just shut down and the life flickered away form my eyes, by body would still keep on chugging at a slower sluggish pace but without a soul. I would be Dudley is if Harry hadn't been able to save him from the Dementors. But a thousand times skinnier and a girl. This morning I was in between projects so I decided to rest my eyes and listen to the creepy South Park episode with the demon Christmas animals. I was just lying in bed when my stomach filled with intense pain and I ended up spending the next hour vomiting in my tiny bathroom. I even brought my laptop in with me so I could listen, puke, do work, and shoot off some e-mails. I am quite the multitasker when I want to be.

I'm still in a little bit of shock about the whole bin Laden thing. I was completely unaware of it until I checked facebook before I went to class. They were talking about it on the radio while I drove to class and I have to admit that I got a little teary about everything. It's a strange feeling.

My American Lit. exam went well my the way Mom.

After the exam I ran some errands and then went to the airport with my journalism group. We're doing a story on the new mural that is being painted on the side of one of the parking garages as a part of the Philly Mural Arts program. We got too interview the lead artist (so cute and a ginger!) and take photos and video of the team working. John talked us through the project and how they have been basically wallpapering the side of a parking garage for the last month. It's a really fascinating and cool thing that they're working on and I'll tell you more about it once the journalism project is finished on Friday.

I came home from the airport and had a strong desire for strawberries and orange seltzer water so I stopped at Path Mark and loaded up and then went home. I think the combination of no sleep, sun, and moderate dehydration wiped me out because I downed a liter of seltzer, put on I'm Reed Fish and then promptly fell asleep for  few hours. I only woke up because Yonni and my mom ha texted me and my phone kept buzzing. When I woke woke up I thought it was already tomorrow and I panicked. It took me several minutes to calm myself down and not start crying. I decided to go visit Yonni at work instead of freak out. I brought him some of the strawberries I bought today and the chocolate I got at the Wilbur factory out in Lancaster because he said he was so drained and I wanted to bring him a pick-me-up.

I spent way more time at Borders than I had planned, but it was good because we haven't seen each other in a while because of all the madness of end of the year stuff and finals. I think it was good for him too. He's been reaching out to me more than usual lately. I don't mind because I love my friends and I'm always willing to listen when they need to talk about something and I'm secretly an old lonely lady on the inside, desperate for company. On my way home I ran over roadkill which made me feel a little terrible for running over the body of something. I swear I didn't see it until the very last second. Of course Yonni had to call and make fun of me, but it's all good.

I'm watching I'm Reed Fish right now. It was Alexis Bledel in it. I don't really like her since Gilmore Girls because she seems to be only a one trick pony when it comes to her acting. Katey Sagal plays the quirky town mayor and Jay Baruchel is the title character. I have had a secret crush on him since I saw him as super lame Tal in Nick and Norah. He's one of those awkward guilty pleasures of mine like Michael Cera or Christopher Mintze-Plasse. I watched The Town yesterday. Great movie. I wasn't expecting a lot from Ben Affleck, but that movie had to be his best work to date. He was great, the whole cast was great, and deep down I really hope that Claire went to Tangerine too.

I want a hug right now. I was going to get one tonight, but I was in a public place and hugging in public places is kind of like kissing in public places and being someone who is trying to go through life as anonymously as possible, I don't like to draw attention like that. That's why I stick to the internet. And if I need a hug now, by the end of the week I'm going to need someone to lie on top of me. I respond well to being slightly crushed, it calms my system and relaxes my body. Maybe I'll just lay down in front of the elephant at the zoo.

Mumford came on the radio earlier so that explains the title tonight.